I thought I saw your name

I thought I saw your name
turns out was just my mind playing tricks again
never was a good magician
but with you on my mind
I’m the assistant locked up in chains
are you ready to set me free
just come back and let me see

you promised to me you’d be here today
but you leave me worrying
I’ll wait for you if you want me to
I just pray one day you’ll come scurrying
hurry back my love
bring back these memories I’ve been burying

you keep me in suspense
on the edge of my seat all tense
at one sight of what might be you
can’t get you off my mind
can’t wait for conversation to commence
are you ready to talk to me
just come back and let me see

you promised to me you’d be here today
but you leave me worrying
I’ll wait for you if you want me to
I just pray one day you’ll come scurrying
hurry back my love
bring back these memories I’ve been burying

One Big Happy Family

One big happy family

youngest of three
soon to be five
a brother as a best friend
and a sister who can dive
you talk to ghosts while you sleep
three kids to one room
you peek through windows and magazines
memories all blurred and tooned.

what happened to the days
when we all got along
one big happy family
singing happy songs
where did it collapse
when did it fall apart
the only thing that keeps me going
is those memories in my heart

so what happened to those days
we all loved so much
your parents had no arguments
and no one dared to judge
they may just be memories
but they’re the best days of your life
it’s things like this you remember
when you pick up that knife

what happened to the days
when we all got along
one big happy family
singing happy songs
where did it collapse
when did it fall apart
the only thing that keeps me going
is those memories in my heart

good memories forgotten
captured in photos
used to be as happy as anyone
whos been told they’ve won the lotto
but the air then got colder
and a new brother as born
it was time to move on
to a new house at dawn

what happened to the days
when we all got along
one big happy family
singing happy songs
where did it collapse
when did it fall apart
the only thing that keeps me going
is those memories in my heart

What If...

What if...

When you’re in love
You can't help but smile and laugh
You can’t help but kiss and hug
The one you call your own
The one you call your home

But what if you burn tonight
And what if you lose
All these beautiful things
Try hold on, you can’t help but cling
One last gasp but you lose your own
Gone with the wind, now your alone

When you’re in love
You can't help but grin and giggle
You can’t help but adore and hold
The one that you possess
The one that you obsess

But what if you burn tonight
And what if you lose
All these beautiful things
Try hold on, you can’t help but cling
One last gasp but you lose what you posses
You get that pain amongst your chest

Thanks guys I really appreciate it

haven't posted in a while so heres a song to keep you lot busy

Thanks guys I really appreciate it

So the tears stream down my face
drop one by one into the river beside me
which recently flooded its banks
hanging from the bridge above
waiting for someone to reach out and save the
but until then I wish you thanks
until then I wish you all thanks

thanks for all the times you came
and gave me all your light
thanks for all the times you came
and brightened up my night
but my dark is way to strong now
and my wrists are getting old
so instead you could give me your heat
and save me from this cold

You had me by the soul
and tossed me on the road
Tied my to the track
and squashed me like a toad
these cuts will heal over
and the scars will hide the pain
but the destroyed can’t be fixed
my heart shattered and left again

thanks for all the times you came
and gave me all your light
thanks for all the times you came
and brightened up my night
but my dark is way to strong now
and my wrists are getting old
so instead you could give me your heat
and save me from this cold

Don’t worry chance

I lost a friend today and I lost the chance to say my last goodbye
And I can’t go back in time so I’m just stuck having to ask myself why
I sent sorry messages but there useless ‘cause they won’t get no reply
And maybe one day there’s a chance we could all just about get by
but times running out it’s been two months now and we’re already in July
I wish this genie would come out I’ve been praying for chance to open my wings and fly

They don’t worry they just find the chance to leave themselves alone
And they don’t worry they just find the chance to discover the unknown
I don’t worry I just find the chance to see what’s has been shown
So please don’t worry you can find the chance to fix all your broken bones

Yesterday we all made friends we all shock hands and wished ourselves goodbye
Yesterday I went back in time and got the chance stop asking myself why
Yesterday my sorry it got sent to the person who then sent a reply
Yesterday I saw the day when we all agreed to get by
Yesterday time stopped running out and I can enjoy the rest of July
Yesterday my genie came out and granted the wish for me to open my wings and fly

They don’t worry they just use the chance to show that they have grown
And they don’t worry they just use the chance to mend the stitches they have sewn
I don’t worry I just use the chance to show where I have flown
So please don’t worry you can use the chance to turn around and then atone

They don’t worry they just find the chance to leave themselves alone
And they don’t worry they just find the chance to discover the unknown
I don’t worry I just find the chance to see what’s has been shown
So please don’t worry you can find the chance to fix all your broken bones

Second coming

good to know that if I ever need attention
all I have to do is die
I wander how many will care
I wander how many will cry
how many will be there at my funeral
after one false white lie
until then I say goodbye
but to my father I will say hi

now I know what Jesus did
those three days he was dead
most he spent worrying
the rest he spent in bed
but I’m no miracle maker
more like a life taker
and as life goes on
I’ll always be known as
the death faker

if opportunity doesn’t knock
then start building a door
but I built to many
just kept needing more
eventually I got trapped
and slowly ran out of money
so I took a chance
of life and death
falsely over dosing
crystal meth

now I know what Jesus did
those three days he was dead
most he spent worrying
the rest he spent in bed
but I’m no miracle maker
more like a life taker
and as life goes on
I’ll always be known as
the death faker

the day I died
I came back the next day
and when I go back
your sins I will portray
and you will all write a book on me
old you hands up high and pray
but this is not what I wanted
so I will hold my head in shame

I’ve always known how Irwin felt
sting rayed broken heart
I’ve always known how Benny felt
on top of all the laughs
but now how Elvis felt
in fame with hand in head
and now I know how Jesus felt
those three days he was dead

I’m sorry was there something I missed

I’m sorry, was there something I missed
you haven’t consumed any alcohol
but you all look f**king pissed
pissed off? Has something happened
everybody’s running
lots of old people running
running from their fears
running for endless years
running from there sadness
and a bucket full of tears

goodbye, goodbye
I’ll be back tomorrow
but until that time comes
you can try, you can try
to miss me
as much as I miss you
‘cause I miss you

I’m sorry, was there something I missed
perhaps you guys did something
perhaps a sly little kiss
you kissed who? When did this happen
everybody’s running
lots of old people running
running from their hate
running from their fate
running from their sadness
and what they used to call mates

goodbye, goodbye
I’ll be back tomorrow
but until that time comes
you can try, you can try
to miss me
as much as I miss you
‘cause I miss you

Madonna – whore complex

heres a song by a gay guy...

we’ve been killing time
so clean up the mess
second hand jumpers
and your best Sunday dress
is all we ever buy
and all you ever wear
so let’s sit around a table
and play truth or dare
when I win the lottery
we can have a better life
but until that day comes
you’ll have stick as my wife

you can be my pure Madonna
you can be my sexy whore
you can be my virgin marry
if it involves things hardcore
you can be my perfect angel
you can be my doting harlot
you can be my holy guardian
just as long as you stay really hot

it’s party time
so let’s go make a mess
and after a few drinks
that’s when ill confess
that all I ever buy
and all I ever wear
is sat under a table
fighting a bare
when I win the lottery
I can buy you presents
but until that day comes
we are just parents

you can be my pure Madonna
you can be my sexy whore
you can be my virgin marry
if it involves things hardcore
you can be my perfect angel
you can be my doting harlot
you can be my holy guardian
just as long as you stay really hot

natalie nightmare

Natalie nightmare

I see Natalie but
where’s the nightmare
she’s a wonderful girl
with amazing hair
maybe there’s more to her
than what I can see
or maybe it’s the fact
I just don’t remember my dreams

if God was a female
we’d all know where she’d be
she’d sooth all our nightmares
and wish us sweet dreams
but God don’t do romance
instead he does greed
so save all your money
and do some good deeds

I see Natalie but
where’s the nightmare
she rides on the wind
looking with despair
maybe if I looked more closely
I’d see what she means
or maybe it’s the fact
I just don’t remember my dreams

if God was a female
we’d all know where she’d be
she’d sooth all our nightmares
and wish us sweet dreams
but God don’t do romance
instead he does greed
so save all your money
and do some good deeds

I see Natalie but
where’s the nightmare
she plays the guitar
but no one knows where
maybe if I searched more
I’d find where she streams
or maybe it’s the fact
I just don’t remember my dreams

613

this is a song for a special freind of mien who lives in Isreal, it's very much and early birthday present, maybe next year i'll put some chords to it :P

613

her name was Ligal
she was just a girl
mixed up in war
fuelled by the west
she sits there all quite
maybe she’s depressed
longing for her love
she looks tearful at best

if God revealed his commandments
on mount Sinai
then why does he leave her
to just sit there and cry
if God rewards the good
then why is she alone
everyone ignores her
like she’s strange and unknown

his name was Dale
and he was just a male
mixed up in famine
fuelled by the poor
he sits there all quite
maybe he’s depressed
longing for his love
he looks tearful at best

if Jesus is our saviour
then why hasn’t he been saved
he’s peaceful, he’s loving
and mostly well behaved
if Jesus performs miracles
then surely it’s his turn
instead he’s living in a hell
left there to just burn

You’re just jealous ‘cause we’re young and in love

they say we can’t be in love,
we’ve been going out 3 days
but this one really was
love at first sight
I stood and starred
all through the night
don’t remember the moment
just the picture
the beauty on my wall

and Jesus he said follow me
but I lost him
playing hide and seek
he was jealous
cause I’m in love
so he sat there
watching from above

you just jealous
‘cause we’re young and in love
your the right hand of God
but he’s wearing a glove
so just sit there and stare
all through the night
just as I did
in joy and delight

Jesus said follow me
but I lost him
playing hide and seek
he was jealous
cause I’m in love
so he sat there
watching from above

one more...

here's one i jsut wrote to try cheer someone up not sure if it worked :-/

Why do I bother trying to cheer you up.

Why do I bother trying to cheer you up.
If all you do is wind me up
whatever happened to this thing called love
when all we ever do is argue
argue like a married couple
but there’s no ring on my finger
and I’m stuck in a bubble
finding where I went wrong
wandering how I lost you
thinking about what I’ve done.

You make me feel
like the shitest girlfriend
so I ask you
is this true?
‘cause to me
you a shit boyfriend
but the truth is
I love you

the only thing we have in common now
is that we both cry black tears
and we both bleed from our wrists
the only difference is
mine are for you
but yours aren’t for me
You make me feel
like the shitest girlfriend
so I ask you
is this true?
‘cause to me
you a shit boyfriend
but the truth is
I love you

more to come soon

im currently writing a new song :P this time im gunna try make it soo it isnt depressing its called you're jsut jealous 'cause we're young and in love (taken from a Brand New song) any ideas for a chorus comment :P

heres a poem i wrote for my freind for his birthday called the dirty crow

The Dirty Crow!!!!

memories are sometimes sour
but I’m sure that ours are sweet
we can sit here and reminisce them all
and watch the world go tweet
or we can stand up and make history
as we make the world complete
three days from trick or treat

the dirty crow
you’ll never know
how much love I hold inside
but on this one day
your birthday
I’ll let you hold the key to my pride
just as long as you provide

My excuse

So what’s your excuse?
Locked up with a chance to run free
God would’ve killed for the chance to fuck with me
A chance I won’t take
Not now it’s too late
The odds stacked against me
Thirty to one
But when he starts the pain
I’ll play him at his game.

You are my excuse
My plea for forgiveness
Yet I’m far from an explanation
Whether to use it more or less
Could I survive with more of your poisonous lips
Or should I lower my addiction
My only resort from the world that we live in
A world that disagrees with my love for you

The whole worlds against me
Time is slowly running out
For something I thought would go on so long
I’m starting to have some doubt
To how long I’m gunna last
To whether I can hold my breath
In this flood of dreams
So far up to my knee

You are my excuse
My plea for forgiveness
Yet I’m far from an explanation
Whether to use it more or less
Could I survive with more of your poison?
Or should I lower my addiction
The only resort from the world that we live in
A world that disagrees with my love for you

Love is blind

the war is over
peace amongst the land
lessons have been learnt
but how many will understand
that the end of one chapter
leads to another beginning
despite ones love for another
like the lamb of god
we will all one day suffer

chorus
but love is blind
and couples cannot see
the other emotions
the ones that hold the key
to fight and break ups
to kiss and make ups.
And the false consciousness you gain
can lead to broken hearts
and unbearable pain

even the smartest
even the richest
have a false sense of hope
as useful as an unreachable itch
and the pain that it causes
makes you wanna just die in a ditch
but this must go on
this war must go on
because the reward is priceless
and they say you only love twice
so proceed with caution
and remember my advice.

but love is blind
and couples cannot see
the other emotions
the ones that hold the key
to fight and break ups
to kiss and make ups.
And the false consciousness you gain
can lead to broken hearts
and unbearable pain

untitled song

You’re a poorly thought up but true excuse
an excuse that no one’s seems to believe
no matter how hard you try to deliver it
sometimes you’ve got to get up and leave
leave all that you’ve worked for
all that you’ve done
‘cause there’s this thing in life and he’s called god
he loves to kick out all the fun
from a life that never was to begin with
a life that will never seize to be
cause no matter how hard I try
this overstayed nightmare won’t leave me

as long as I stay
as long as I live
as long as I survive
as long as I give
I know there’s a chance
that this pain that no longer hurts me
will maybe one day leave me
and this god will set me free

to write about feelings you first have to feel it
perhaps that’s why I’m so good at it
‘cause every day I walk through hell
and the doors are closed with no exits
like digging a grave with a spoon
there is no sense of escape
stuck here six feet under
with a black rose and my mix tape

as long as I stay
as long as I live
as long as I survive
as long as I give
I know there’s a chance
that this pain that no longer hurts me
will maybe one day leave me
and this god will set me free
free from this hell I’m stuck in
stuck like a shoe in mud
if this mud makes me dirty
then wash away all the blood.

What was once a love song is now the complete opposite, what happened?

I remember when I was too nervous to hug you
(what if I told you that I miss you)
then we did it all the time
I remember when I was too nervous to kiss you
(what if I told you that I love you)
then your lip ring was constantly touching mine
I remember the first time I said I loved you
(what if I told you that I still do)
you told me you loved me too
and maybe that’s the biggest lie you’ll ever regret
(what if I told you that I wish you loved me too)
cause its certainly one I’ll never forget.

This could be the first song for my mix tape
but a mix tape wont steal your heart
would be full of anger, rage and break up songs
to show I don’t want us to be apart
not something I can really change
but I will wish for it until I’m dead
because I told you that I loved you once
and I meant every word I said

wish you would ring me one more time
(I would ring you but you changed your number)
before you go to the movies with that guy
(who you went and found the day you left me)
who’s probably better than me in bed
(but he only wants sex)
so I can tell you how I love you more than him
(he’s a big fat lie just as you were)

This could be the first song for my mix tape
but a mix tape wont steal your heart
would be full of anger, rage and break up songs
to show I don’t want us to be apart
not something I can really change
but I will wish for it until I’m dead
(and your pretty face will never be erased from my head)
I like to think I can cope but actually, instead
(I drown the idea and every day I dread)
the idea of lying in my rose bed
(corroding my time now and ahead)
thinking of my heart that once was but now fled
(dreaming of the day that we might wed)
because I told you that I loved you once
and I meant every word I said.

The hero I’ll never be able to have

i can't take full credit for this one, probably can't even take 90%. basicly a freind gave me random phrases, which appear in this song, and i put them together and made this, enjoy...

I wish I didn’t feel
the way that I do
about you
because it makes me want things
things that never could be
like the sight of you and me
together
holding each other
making each other warm
even though we do not feel cold
being together forever
watching one another grow old

am I the hero you deserve but do not need
or am I the one you need but do not deserve
‘cause to me you're the hero I’ll never be able to have
but the hero I’ve always wanted
the hero I’ll always fight for
the hero I would give up my life for another day in their arms
a day that will never come
because no matter how long I give up my luxuries for
I’ll always be the grain of sand in your desert of a life

I’d give you both sides of my heart to cherish forever
but you would have to glue them back together
you could be the last piece of my heart
a heart that’s like a jigsaw
ripped in to pieces
by the devils claw
I’m like a shirt without a button
a star that has no heat
and you’re the missing object
the thing that makes me complete


am I the hero you deserve but do not need
or am I the one you need but do not deserve
‘cause to me you're the hero I’ll never be able to have
but the hero I’ve always wanted
the hero I’ll always fight for
the hero I would give up my life for another day in their arms
a day that will never come
because no matter how long i give up my luxuries for
I’ll always be the grain of sand in your desert of a life

My only weakness now
is the sound of your beautiful voice
that never leaves my mind
even with the power of choice

starring at me like a statue

a song i wrote about my teacher who i dont really like

just like my broken down bus
you cannot prove that I was lying
just like a bat with no eyes
you could not see that I was crying
inside, inside I was pleading for your mercy
but no matter how hard I tried
to make you stop your perfect attempt at changing what I am.
so you carry on ripping out my heart and turning my blood to mercury
thick, thick poison, that’s pumped into my heart
from the anger and anxiety you give
when you decide you want to talk
talk about how I’ve wronged
and how you are right

I hate it when you when you make me want to reduce
and hold myself back
back from the life I know I could have
and sometimes I don’t think your even aware of it
the irony sickens me
sick to death with your voice staring at me
staring at me like a statue
a statue that follows my shadow
follows me wherever I go
can’t kill it, can’t erase it
just have to hide away in the darkness

finally you decide to let me go
to leave me like the little boy in the corner
thinking about what he’s done
what he could’ve done right
what I could’ve done right
what I did wrong
and the only way I can delete it from my mind
is by writing some shitty song

sick to death with your voice staring at me
staring at me like a statue
a statue that follows my shadow
follows me wherever I go
can’t kill it, can’t erase it
just have to hide away in the darkness

Sleeping with the lights on

eyes closed
nowhere to go
stuck in a place, no one can dream to get out of
yet it’s over so quick
with a chance of déjà vu
all that’s forgotten
will come back again so soon
when you enter the vile land once more
in parallel with the moon.

We’ve just started this game
and I’m already winning
a thousand dreams and you still haven’t left
‘cause we live in a world where you’ll always exist
where you’ll never be forgotten
whenever I close my eyes
and rest my head on all that cotton
I’m taken to a place
where the only thing that doesn’t leave
is your perfect pretty face

can you help me with my addiction?
I’m addicted to staying asleep
you’re the reason I go to bed so early
and then don’t wake up till late
you’re the reason I’m always last to work
your the reason I missed my date.
I really wish I had a little more patience
but I just can’t wait to see you again
some people call me lazy
and they think that I’m insane.

We’ve just started this game
and I’m already winning
a thousand dreams and you still haven’t left
‘cause we live in a world where you’ll always exist
where you’ll never be forgotten
whenever I close my eyes
and rest my head on all that cotton
I’m taken to a place
where the only thing that doesn’t leave
is your perfect pretty face

so where’s my insomnia now?
Something I could only dream of having
if only my dreams weren’t diseased by you
not that I want you to stop, just want you to start sharing
ration out my chimera
my brain knows I’m never gunna be with her
so why does this unrealistic notion occur

We’ve just started this game
and I’m already winning
a thousand dreams and you still haven’t left
‘cause we live in a world where you’ll always exist
where you’ll never be forgotten
whenever I close my eyes
and rest my head on all that cotton
I’m taken to a place
where the only thing that doesn’t leave
is your perfect pretty face
your face is a picture
a captured moment of time
a moment that never leaves my mind.

If you wrote this song I’d probably like it

heres a song i wrote for a beautiful girl called hannah

intro
(you have no idea, how much you mean to me, I’ve not once stopped thinking about you. I’ve never felt this way about anyone in my whole life, and it will take a lot for me to feel this way with someone else, and I know for a fact that it would be a bloody long time. And I would be so lost if I didn’t have you in my life. The best memories I have, all involve you, and I love you.)
You say you hate your looks
but your looks are my favourite part
there’s something I’ve always wanted to ask you
are you glad you stole my heart?
I only speak the truth
but the truth is a terrible thing
every time I have to leave you
I can’t help but hold on and cling

chorus
but you are beautiful
you are perfect in every way
I wish to hold you forever
and I’d hate to see the day
when we break up
and move our separate ways
as I will always love you
and you’ll be forever in my heart

you have the most amazing voice
which is echoed in my mind
every part of you perfect, like a summers day
makes me glad that I’m not blind
how you love me bemuses me
but I close my eyes
and count to three
pray to god and wish that
forever we will be

but you are beautiful
you are perfect in every way
I wish to hold you forever
and I’d hate to see the day
when we break up
and move our separate ways
as I will always love you
and you’ll be forever in my heart

i wish i had the courage to put down my gun

Seventeen years of my life and I still feel impatient
crying black tears, but black tears are kinda
ssssssswish i had you here so we could cuddle up and die
i’d love to see you try
but when you have your problems
you just get up, open you wings, and fly
Chorus
fuck that, fuck trying
i deserve dying
every tear that i bleed
without a sense of crying
fell to the ground
when i found out you were lying

feeling cold, feeling empty
its not the same without you here
i wish i could dream forever
cause thats the only place you appear
yet im stuck here with my shotgun
trying to make it clear

fuck that, fuck trying
i deserve dying
every tear that i bleed
without a sense of crying
fell to the ground
when i found out you were lying

I wish I had the courage to put away my gun
pick myself of the ground
turn around and run
from all the pretty faces left in my past
but yours will never leave me
and forever it will last

fuck that, fuck trying
i deserve dying
every tear that i bleed
without a sense of crying
fell to the ground
when i found out you were lying
fell to the ground
when i found out you were lying